December 17, 2011


I need not think of what to do but rather do and think while doing.

I've been getting lots of inspiration and motivation lately and it's been coming through the strangest influences. Hip Hop, people I've never met and the lazy areas of my life.

Have a good Christmas everyone.

November 10, 2011

the IDEA of MOOR pictures

my ideology behind my blog is to inform the uninformed. not that i'm a hub for human intelligence but rather to share the very experiences and ideas that keep my engine running. I really wish more people would be as intrigued by myself as I am. but we can't win em' all now can we? I feel i'd have more drive to write if I knew there were actual people out there interested in my statements and theories. (Sarcasm is a personality trait I exercise too often).

I really feel like the nonsense I post should be strictly material that appeals to me. Like in a sense by coming to my blog or whatever this is, you're simply looking into the world of Josh Monteith (MOOR pictures) and the things of this world and of God that really get me thinking and loving this life i've been blessed with. Understand that this is all just human perception.

I'll leave you with this; I was reading a book by Donald Miller called 'Searching for God Knows What'. Donald Miller is speaking from an Aliens perspective.

"Humans, as a species, are constantly, and in every way, comparing themselves to one another, which, given the brief nature of their existence, seems an oddity and, for that matter a waste. Nevertheless, this is the driving influence behind every humans's social development, their emotional health and sense of joy, and, sadly, their greatest tragedies. I is as though something that helped them function and live well has gone missing, and they are pining for that missing thing in all sorts of odd methods, non of which are working. the greater tragedy is that very few people understand they have the disease. This seems strange as well because it is obvious. To be sure, it is killing them, and yet sustaining their social and economic systems. They are an entirely beautiful people with a terrible problem."

October 9, 2011

do this: (or don't)

There's something about adventure that I can't get enough of. Friends will legitimately not ask me to do things because of how optimistic I've become of doing anything but the present. Some call it restlessness and some would tag it as anxiety but I believe it's just DNA. I've got an old dusty picture of my grandpa Monteith when he was approximately 19 years old standing next to his '50something Harley. Ape hangers, a tall sissy-bar for roping a tent and sleeping bags and a white 3/4 helmet. Some people are blessed with beautiful heritage.

I'm beginning to realize that the only person that's encouraging these blissful ideas is me and the only person that'll bring them to fruition is me as well. We can't wait on others. Now understand there's a balance of being overwhelming and becoming a nuisance and as soon as we've convinced ourselves that we're the only logical human being and have presumably know everything; we've gone too far. What I'm saying is that I came from parents that just let me do whatever. They were stoked on what I did but honestly, I feel at times they where never the greatest encouragement and I reached a point where I was my own driving force. I have to do it, these things, this mental list of desires and just because people may never back it up doesn't necessarily mean it's unappreciated.

I have a good friend, since I don't believe in best friends, Glenn. Now this friend of mine completed college, packed his car and slowly migrated his way south to Santa Fe. I applaud things like this because when it comes down to it, it's an inkling of desire that sparks change. I'm very much pro-change and hope that my LIFE and not my WORDS reflect this.

I could sit in Java the rest of my days, reading books, talking to Jesus with my wife next to me and a bowl of soul in my hand. Or...I could not. I could make an award winning documentary, win Banff Film Festival and work for Universal Studios till I'm 60 or...I could not. Because to me, and as I get older, I feel less passionate about "making it" and more passionate about doing something. In the instance that we've become more aware of what we're not doing rather than how well we're off we've thrown it all away. We're our own worst enemy and I'm telling you from experience that more than criticism from a few bland people, we ourselves can destroy our own ambitions. Why would I proclaim to be follower of Jesus and then put all I am into making money which biblically, is proclaimed to be the root of all evil. Take my things from me, take my pointless belongings because all I want is God. (Proverbs 30:9-7) And trying to be sincere about that statement is, in itself, a war cry.

my therapy: '78 Honda CB400 the machine that'll end up soaking up many thoughts and carrying me thousands of miles.

September 5, 2011

no sense at all.

I ponder in wonder, 'what will I become'
Not a sound, not a sermon
While I'm alone there's no one
'what will I become'

anxious existence, anxiously exhausted
Tired from dreaming, lonely from thinking
to whom will I stand, from these things I run
proceeding to fail enveloped in mercy

can I have the last dance, come as romance
you're going to have to take this one
you're going to have to make us one
'what have I become'

wipe away my existence eternaly
engaged an inner engagement
sought to seek what had only been seen
days reimbursed with ridicule and joy

i'll never turn away, woe my strength
to burn today in Your eyes Jesus
like fire i've been scared
'where have I gone"

Kingdom come my will not done
no longer seeking the wind
woe my friend, please step back
'this I've become'

June 30, 2011

to God; in confused humility

the other day I tried. I failed. I attempted to do something incredible and only caused the inevitable.

I run circles in my head trying to fix what i've wronged. God, hook a brother up, give a nigga a straight answer! Or have you? Did I miss it and if so where? Which direction have I wandered when all along I was supposed to patiently wait. This waiting game I'm called to exercise isn't working out and I guess i've grown that in not knowing there's knowledge to be gained. I desire to know but learn more when I do exactly the opposite.

There's something about not understanding yet becoming so consumed in trouble and worry it'll only cause peace. "I've messed up so badly this time. Holy Lord God Almighty! Will you still save me? All the misunderstanding i've been spoon fed in the pew and all that i've heard spoken of; is this what it's like to exercise the Truth? Is this where you wanted me the entire time?"

I've come to realize that in a very unhealthy manor i've gotten used to chaos and a distraught sense of being. Follow? I was talking with a friend and through that realized i've grown up since the age 14 not being parented by my parents but by the law. I've not answered to my mothers or fathers correction but rather to my probation officers. It's what I chose. I wouldn't 'blame' it on anything else. Do I forgive myself? hardly, but the fact is that it's what I chose and through these things have developed terrible, self-destructive habits. A case of ADD mixed with male genes sprinkled with the Monteith family name and here I sit, a 6ft 1in 24 year old boy trying to develop the habits of a man, or what i've been shown is a man.

To God I look. I look to the people He has placed in my life and just as you begin to roll your eyes at such a traditional thing to say realize that says specifially that 'He uses the foolish to confound the wise' and foolish I am.

To God be the glory, nothing or no one else. And to Jesus be my heart, the only one i've got that's so terribly fucked up.

April 12, 2011

Day 4.

Rarely do I run across people and/or companies to be exact that seem to be doing what I wish I could. Here's a perfect example of a couple dudes doing what they love and killing it along the way. I know the fact that I'm a die hard cyclist has a lot to do with the realitivity of this short video but even when I look outside of their hearts to design 'commuter friendly' apparel I really see the simplicity of what they do and in a sense, how they present themselves. A company is in direct correlation with the persons personality running the show. Understanding how the 'SUPPORT YOUR LOCAL ______" is not just liberal stand on the business world. Do what you love, and make a living out of it.

April 11, 2011

Day 3.

self explanitory.

April 7, 2011

Day 1.

a video a day for a week. not actually of my own work but something that inspires me. be blessed. -Joshua

(the art of being passionate about something is so important to me. I see so many people that just love to do nothing. The sad thing is that 95% of the time it only roots back to their parents, a life of mediocracy. I only feel so passionate about such things because of where I came from, that I was once there living for nothing but myself and failing at it. I hope you're encouraged. Don't stress about being the best, stress about not being whatever the hell you want to be.)

April 6, 2011

April 6th

before you read anything go to THIS link and listen to this song.

go on;

A lot has been going on lately. Not that you care or I would really expound on what I mean by that but it's a lot. Life is so worthless isn't it? One moment I'm striving to be the best bike rider/videographer/photographer/writer the earth has ever seen and the next I'm coming into some form of reconciliation that no matter what I do, I'll eventually die. I put that terribly but what I mean is that often I'm so focused on money, ambitions, relationships and everything else under that sun that God seems to take a back seat and I've actually do more harm than good to myself. I tell God i'll live on the streets if that's where I'll gain relevancy, I'll work the 9-5 if that's where my ministry lies. An opening to peoples lives. Didn't I ask for this? No, but yes, everyday.

I'm still learning but something inside of me says that "struggle" is only direct reflection of a lack of obedience and what's even more frustrating is that it's easier to be told what to do then to be left to figure it out.

Black coffee is so good. I feel like cigarettes shouldn't carry addiction or hurt our lungs. Like American Spirits but no tar or nicotine haha. Frick that'd be awesome. A white mocha is like lust, it super appealing, cost a lot, but will always give you a stomach ache. I'd like to boycott white mochas, and lust for that matter, but i'm sure i'll drink out of both before I die. Plenty of times.

Jesus wants you to know Him did you know that? Like not church service play along but actually KNOW HIM. Did you know that we could attend every christmas, birthday and thanksgiving feast till we die but if I don't actually talk to my relatives I won't know them. Just saying. Pull our heads out of our asses and start talking to Jesus, He'll respond guaranteed.

Love you guys.

March 2, 2011

inspiration; GOD & PHOS

I haven't been in and around a church a long time. Growing up we'd pile into our '96 Dodge Caravan and make the commute almost every sunday but I guess when you're young and naive to who Jesus really is you develop a hardening of heart without ever recognizing it. When I say 'in and around' I mean consciencely attending out of desire, not obligation. It's been a journey and I presume that even if you were to scroll downward to my first post you'd read something about God. A reference to His presence in my life and how it continually to this day has simply lit me up. I love Him.

I don't know why or when but lately (the last 2 months) God has put a burning desire in me to write. Not just the daily journal but to really begin to share my heart. Regardless if it's offensive or crude or bias I feel as though the truth in me, of who I really am, has begun to leak out of my thoughts. I feel as though anything less is acting out in insecurity, it would be me misleading to anyone who cares to read and that for me would be fake and dishonest. I have a passion for peoples stories and along with that I too want no bull shit. If we ask for a sailboat and receive a tramp stamp then why again, would we want to get another tattoo?

With that said I leave you with this:

I remember the day I was scrolling through 'Vimeo Staff Picks' and stumbled across a certain video called 'Last Minutes with Oden'. I hope most of you are familiar with the short piece and if you're not then I'm genuinely sorry for you. The point is that from that day on I was inspired. Not by that video in particular but as I watched other videos produced by this 'PHOS Pictures' I realized "here's a couple dudes who obviously have a relationship with Jesus and are absolutely killing it in the documentary scene." About a year later I went back on Vimeo for my daily check-up and saw that 'Last Minutes with Oden" had received the award for Best Vimeo Video. Rightfully so. I believe in favoratism from God and I believe His favorites are those who genuinely love Him. Simple as it seems I often wonder if I'm missing the mark. Not in a condeming 'you'll never go to Heaven' but am I doing all I can to just genuinely love Jesus and let that show in my day. Here's another outstanding short by PHOS Pictures. Share it with your mother, she'll probably cry.

February 28, 2011

Random Expression

Can't decide whether I'm right or wrong. As if I'm my own judge, my own rule maker. Ignorance overwhelms me.

"wanting to have a relationship with Jesus foremost; is important to maintaining a relationship."

How do I convey what I cannot explain? You see this ministry thing, the ministering to unbelievers isn't as easy as I had hoped. I didn't sign up anywhere. I didn't have someone come to me and ask me if I wanted to know Jesus and the thing about it is that if they had I would have spit in their face. "don't tell me what I can and cannot do" seems to be the common response. A misconception I can't single handedly change. I wish I could, Oh Lord do I. But the fact is I can't. Just like I would have punched the Bible thumper who asked me I only assume their response will be similar. Why do I turmoil over what seems like such a minor road block? It'll never go away. The 'judgmental', the 'legalistic', the 'religion', the 'hypocrisy', and every other stereotype I receive will always remain. I spend so much effort in thought and emotion asking God for the solution while all along He's hitting me over the head yelling "it's ok if there's not a solution Josh."

You mean to say there are problems that cannot be solved? Or should I say issues that have no resolution. I feel like Dorothy on an ever-ending Yellow Brick Road. If you tell me to make disciples, if I'm called to preach the Good News with the knowledge that some will harden their Pharaoh-style hearts and not receive what God seems to be saying through me; then how God, you'll have to teach me how to breath again. As if i've been living on a misunderstanding. Feeling as though I'm digging a hole that has no end. A lost cause. But not exactly.

The parable of the sewer. Sometimes God will use me to cast out demons and others he'll use me in what seems at the time as complete failure. I didn't stand on stage with shaky knees to not have my odds of salvation 0 for 250. Was I not Holy enough? I masturbated yesterday so God apparently used that against me. But I thought 'if God is for me who can be against me'? Doesn't that include the world, Satans dwelling place? I cannot do anything on my own. That's it, I tried to do it on my own. I failed; will always fail.

February 8, 2011

a short.

I rode at the skate park today. I sweated and crashed and exposed my skin to the outdoor air for more than the twenty minute bike ride to and from the office. The feeling of spring nearby is southing yet all the while my anxiety builds. If anything it only reassures my strong desire to leave Northern Idaho in attempt to reach warmer climates. Yeah, I think about it often.

In memorial to summer and in reguards to spring I feel this short film is appropriate. Not real certain why it's titled "The Give" but it almost makes perfect sense. There's something that intrigued me and exposed an almost Youthful emotion the first time I saw it so I hope you enjoy it. See you soon.