August 28, 2009

today: GOOD

the other day I met an older man named Vince. He said to me "now you don't forget to live each day to its full potential you hear. You won't be young forever and you never miss what you have until it's gone."

i couldn't put words together quick enough to reply. i thought "amen" but said nothing. a simple head nod and gesture of appreciation was all he was looking for and all i had to offer.

these lives we live, although set apart, are no doubt awesome. here's to my brothers, sisters, mother and father, chris, corey, and all that have been here to spit some wisdom in my face. thank you God for saving me and giving me a future and hope to hold on to. the bible says 'hope that will never fail'. I love you all.

it's a good day to be alive.

my niggas.

August 9, 2009

sympathetic sunday

Today was just one of those days. A day where nothing quite felt right and after a few poor decisions last night, I couldn't help but be trapped in thoughts of regret. I just couldn't shake the burdens i've acquired the last few weeks and they just really hit me today. All at once.
After talking to Chuck and Mario at Merit for a few minutes today I felt the Lord lift everything off my shoulders. It was like He just flipped the light switch and there I was, back to being His child, where I belong. I suddenly became content with my situations and knew that I had already been forgiven for what I had done. God is so freakin' good! Hallelujah!

On a more serious, sad note:

I saw this video about a pro bmx'er named Mike Aitken earlier today. For those of you who aren't familiar with either Mike or bmx the story is that he was spinning a stock 360 over a dirt jump nearly a year ago and had over rotated. He hit his head ridiculously hard and as you'll see in the video, He's got not much left. Just like that, literally the best and most favorite rider of mine was put to a close from one crash. Makes me wonder...

To be honest, I nearly started to cry. I'd have to say that Mikes story has to be on of the saddest i've ever heard, especially bmx related. I honestly was left speechless after watching this short video because I can't really express my thoughts or the sorrow I feel. I guess i'll leave it at that. It's one of those "feel thankful for what you do have" sort of moments. Hundreds of prayers and thoughts go out to Aitken and his family, his son, and everyone close to the guy. God be with you Mike. He loves you deeply, don't forget that.

August 5, 2009

be anxious, no more.

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

I know i'm a bit of an opinionist, although i'm sure it's not in the dictionary. I like to express my opinions and back them up with good reason. I love to share my heart and what it's aching of. As my desires become greater and greater I seem to have a hard time managing them. It's hard to visualize videos and envision photographs while in the meantime I cut potatoes and boil water. It's hard for me to tell my brothers I'm unable to go on tour and film in the name of Jesus because my probation officer said she's not ok with it. When will this bondage disappear? When will my Lord allow me to be set free from my years of worry and emptiness still attached by the Law? He will i've got no doubt in but it's this wait, the waiting of water to boil in which i've become inpatient. I don't want to be restless and the thing i've been learning is that it's these times in which my character's built. In these moments it almost goes back to the old 'a boy becoming a man' stereotype. If you're reading this and are unfamiliar with the Bible then I greatly encourage you to read from it as often as you can. It'll do wonders, the things God wants to speak to you through the word will literally blow your mind and forever change your perspective on the Holy Spirit and the love the Lord has for you, whether you've been saved or not. One of my recent favorite verses talks about presenting all your wants and needs through prayer. It says to not be anxious about anything, something i've not yet grasped.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phillipians 4:6