March 17, 2009

Pourin' One out for A Homie.

I'm going to lay it down plain and simple this round.

The reason I'm writing is because i've been given 3 hours to search my heart. A short period of time to come up with an excuse? no, a reasoning as to why I should not serve 475 days in County Jail. You see, I just returned from a probation meeting that went as I had not planned. I went in with high hopes and exited with emotional exhaustion. Follow me as I reflect on why I'm looking at over a year of incarceration:

(Before I get started I want to let you know I'm going to try to not bask in my sorrows as much as possible. I don't want to complain or gripe about things that were my wrong doing from the beginning. In no way am I trying to play the innocent card right now and although it's tough to overcome circumstances such as these, "we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us". I speak only the TRUTH.)

For those of you who don't know, i've been on Misdemeanor Probation for over a year now and was sentenced for 2 years. In my prior being I was a bit of an idiot. I used to have a severe drinking problem and out of the million times I drove drunk I was lucky enough to only have gotten caught twice by the Law Enforcement.

This last summer I served 30 days in the County Jail on 2 different occasions, as much of a bummer as it was and is, I believe that the Lord used me and molded me to be someone I'm beyond grateful of being today. In Romans, Chapter 5 v. 3 is says that "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

This verse has non-coincidently become sort of the Anthem of the last 5 years of my life. I love the Lord and I love how He truly does use our sufferings to make us stronger and build our character. So I go into this day with a mindset of gratitude for I know that  whatever happens may be used toward His glory through me and the man of God he's slowly making me. Hallelujah Jesus!

So this is it, 2 hours from this very moment i'll be incarcerated. For how long? I do not know.

I encourage anyone reading this to take a moment, thank the Lord for not only the life he's given us but the freedom. Freedom of choice, opportunity, and the circumstances He puts us in. I encourage you to reflect on things in a joyful way. Sorrows are for the Birds and even though it's 475 days, that's a flicker of light in the glorious spectrum of what God truly has planned for us. 

Amen. Let it be.

Sincerely, Joshua

March 1, 2009

Comin' Up, BIG

Flourish: grow or develop in a healthy or vigorous way.

Definitely hits home. As the next few month go on I have a feeling this word will take on more than its official meaning. I've been invited to go on tour and film for BFC (Boarders for Christ) starting the end of May/beginning of June. I can't describe how much emotion comes over me thinking about such an opportunity and that it will become a reality. The thing that gets me all the time is knowing that it's only the start of something great, i'm not sure what SOMETHING is or what it possesses but i've been promised this SOMETHING and have accepted it, to take off with it "like a bat out of hell" you could say. 

"Whoever diligently seeks good seeks favor, but evil comes to him who searches for it. Whoever trusts in his riches will fall but the righteous will flourish like a green leaf."
Proverbs 11:27-28

So i was walking down the sidewalk on Friday night with my friend Tim heading downtown to say happy birthday to my good friend Nik Bjustrom who had turned 21. Just cruising in the usual fashion chit-chattin' away I stumbled onto one of the greatest physical blessings i've yet received to this day, A $100 BILL. No joke. Like i'm sure we've all been 13 years old sitting in class and have talked about how awesome it'd be or how rich we'd be if we found a $100's right? Well be grateful because as of 11:30pm Friday night I just fulfilled one of our childhood dreams. After a "pete rose dive' into the frosty grass and 63 high-fives from Tim reality set in. I had a hundred dollars, FOR FREE. Tim took this picture seconds after getting to my feet...I did the 'double thumbs up, while holding the prize' sort of pose.

An obvious gift from the Lord himself i'm still not sure what to do with it, it currently sits in my bedroom doing nothing but looking extra dirty because sadly enough someone had to lose Benjamin in order for me to find him. It's nothing to be too proud of because i've always thought money was nothing but trouble. When was the last time you met a rich man who had all things completely dialed, not a worry in the world, a beautifully sound family, and Faith and knowledge overflowing from head to toe. It's just not something we see everyday. So here's another definition:

Responsibility: the state or fact of having a duty to deal with something or having control over someone.

So whether we grow up, becoming men. Come up, finding them C-tones or just Put up, with everyday blasphemy; I hope our futures become apparent before our age and stubbornness get the best of us.

here's the barn edit that mike and I filmed, edited by mike. enjoy.